Tuesday, 27 January 2015

Rapunzel, Rapunzel Let down your hair

In the past few weeks I have struggled on deciding what to do with my hair. As you all most probably know, 2 years ago I had very little 'chicken fluff hair' as my mum would call it. I feel awful writing this but some days I just wish my hair was that short again just for the fact that I am completely crap when it comes to styling my hair.
Now that I am 2 years post treatment my hair is at a length where I can wear it down and have it cut into a style instead of being at an awkward length where I have to struggle to pin awkward bits of hair up with grips. Talking of grips...the amount of them I have gone through in my life in unbelievable...I swear there is a hairgrip stealing fairy who steals them so I have to buy a new packet every week. 
Anyone else have a grip sealer? 
Since my hair has grown back I have it highlighted regularly as the colour of it looked really heavy and blocky..I looked like a lego head. 

My aim for the next month is to try different hairstyles. I have been addicted to pinterest recently and have seen lots of nice ideas on there. I have a hairdressers appointment booked in 2 weeks time so I have time to think of something to do with it. It definitely needs thinning out... A LOT! My hair was really thick before loosing it but now it is on another level of thickness...my poor hairdresser! 
 I have to admit my favourite style till now is when it was a lot shorter and really curly. As it has grown out the curl in my hair has dropped which is rather disappointing as I enjoyed having curly locks. I thought it was really crazy at the time but am so tempted to cut it  this length again.  
I will keep you updated on how I decide to have it cut. I never make extreme decisions with my hair but we will see. I am happy that now my hair is growing back I look more normal, not that having cancer made me look unusual but for girls to have no hair is not the norm is it? I feel like people wouldn't have a clue that I battled cancer by looking at me and it's a great feeling but I still feel a bit strange, I guess it's all part of getting over what happened and moving on wards and upwards :) 

Friday, 16 January 2015

New Year

I have a feeling that this year is going to be marvelous! The typical cliche is to write a list of resolutions that I will most likely fail. Every year my resolutions tend to be the same, loose weight and travel more. Well this year I have decided to not call them resolutions as I tend to never stick to them. I decided to look at 2014's resolutions to see If I accomplished them. 

Well I am actually quite impressed. Other than getting another tattoo, and being a smaller dress size... I have achieved all of the above haha! Most of the year I have felt really well and my energy levels have increased and I feel slightly less fatigued than I did:). 

Regardless of being 2 years post bone marrow transplant, I still suffer with side effects. Physically I look well, my hair is growing and I look 'normal' again on the outside but inside I don't always feel. It is something all cancer patients feel and friends and family will never understand.
I have come to the conclusion that I just have to wait until my body has recovered fully and need to come to terms that it could take any amount of time.
This year I need to appreciate that I am getting better and the only way is upwards.
I am going to take my time and continue to volunteer for charities, it is something I can add to my CV to cover what I have been doing with my recovery time whilst being absent from a job for a few years. I hope my schedule for returning to work is this year when I will hopefully feel physically and emotionally ready. Getting back to normal is heaps harder than I expected and few people find it easy. 
Now I am post treatment my aim is to raise as much awareness of cancer in teenagers & young adults and I will continue doing so by blogging my experience and life after treatment. I have some great plans for my blog this year so stay posted.

Monday, 12 January 2015

We All Have Different Reasons To Be Happy

Happy Monday everyone! I am starting this week thinking and trying to be a lot more positive. In the evenings I tend to browse on Pinterest for hours on end and have recently had an obsession with pinning quotes that inspire me. This week I came across this quote which is so realistically true. We all have different reasons to be happy and have different perspectives of what makes us happy.....I am happy for being alive, cancer free, healthy and having a community of lovely family and friends. 
What reasons do you have to be happy?

Friday, 9 January 2015


Seeing as we are now in the New Year I thought I would sum up my year of 2014. I have a lot of happy and sad memories of 2014. I think it is easy to say that 2014 was a pretty great year. I have celebrated my 21st Birthday and 2 years post transplant. I have traveled A LOT! Up and down the UK and abroad. I have met some amazing friends and sadly lost inspirational friends. I have volunteered and gave back to people who have helped me. I have been involved with a lot of great charities and been on some amazing trips.

Something I have realised this year is how quickly time passes by, so enjoy and live each day as if it's your last. 

Emotional Week

Apologies for being quiet from blogging this year. I have been super busy and struggled to find time.
Finally on this horrible wet Friday evening I am giving myself time to unwind and blog. I currently am watching the shocking news about the recent Paris attacks and it's scaring the shit out of me....what is our world coming to? 
My thoughts are with the friends and family of the people who have unfortunately lost their lives due to these awful attacks.

I feel almost like this New Year hasn't had a happy start. I know of 3 people who have sadly passed away and my Grandad has suffered a heart attack, he is still in hospital. I don't want this post to be too morbid but I don't feel like my happy self at the moment and am trying my best not to let things get to me.

Life can be completely shit at times and it's strange how people passing away can have a great effect on you. I went to a funeral this week and it made me think of myself dying. Just to clarify I don't think I am going to die because I am now in remission however the fact I have been very close to dying just made me think. The only worry I have about dying is leaving my family and how it would destroy them. I am and always have been an emotional person and I think about the families of the people who have passed away and how awful it must be for them, I can't even imagine being in their shoes.
Anyway before I go on and on and possibly share my funeral details with you, which stupidly I do have planned believe it or not....songs and everything....I am not mental I swear! I know I sound it!
This week has just been a bit emotional, I started the week feeling really ill with a sore throat and that's never a good start to the week is it? 
On a more positive note, I have a lot of plans for my blog and a lot of exciting things happening this year. 
What exciting plans do you have for the New Year?